How should i let go of this?

I had hooked up with a coworker since I did feel a little attracted to him. Supposedly he has a gf but I don't know. We never actually had sex but we touched, caressed, and we would have dry sex. You know he would rub his private against mine. The thing is I've never been sexual with or even kissed a guy. So maybe there is something wrong with me. Anyway back in November, I emailed him telling him that this FWB is over and that I would tell HR on him if he ever suggested hooking up. Since November, I've been ignoring him completely no hello nada. Since I was so mad and hurt. Last month he went out of the country, I was actually relieved that he was gone, but then he came back last week and I kept ignoring him until yesterday. Yesterday, I saw him in the kitchen and he said hello, you know like a mechanical/ break the ice hello and I smiled and said hello and that was it. I felt completely at ease. This morning, I ran into him and said hello and he didn't say anything. I emailed him saying that I was hoping we could be on speaking terms since yesterday I felt at ease with speaking to him. He ignored my email. He actually didn't bother to open it and looked at me like a freak. I personally confronted him and he was like fine. As the afternoon progressed, I did a lot of walking by passing his desk, but I didn't bother to talk to him since I was working. As I was walking back and he was leaving he gave me a somewhat dirty rude look. I personally thought that was rude and I sent him an email stating that I thought him looking at me funny was rude and that I was hurting these past few months and that I was hoping we could get along as coworkers. Then I sent him another email that it was best that we didn't talk and that he should leave me alone and let me do my job. How can I move past this and get out and get some friends and a boyfriend? All I do is work and go to school, but I feel if I were getting out with people. This would be easier to deal with.

Sometimes he looks at me weird, so I don't know how he's feeling.How should i let go of this?
It looks to me as if he's trying to spare you by ignoring you. If he knows you're hurting, and you obviously can't be together, him ignoring you is the most kind thing that he can do. It would hurt so much more if he were to continue to try being friends with you when you weren't ready for it.



So, as much as it may suck right now, this is probably going to work out better for you both in the long run.



As far as friends, maybe you should try making friends at school. Or perhaps you can join a book club, or a church or something.



Good luck!How should i let go of this?
God you're all over the place...



- Lets dry hump

- Then not only leave me alone but if you contact me I'll contact HR

- Then you tried to say hello, he ignored you because he thinks you're a prick lol, fair play!

- Then you tried again (fair enough) worth a bash

- Then he ignores you again (don't be surprised by him ignoring you, most people would have done)

- Then you sent him another email telling him to leave you alone %26amp; do your job



I'd say by ignoring you, and not even opening your e-mails, he was doing a pretty good job of ignoring you already, so yes probably does think you %26amp; the situation is pretty odd.



Don't bother with him now. It's been messed up and doesn't seem like it can be fixed.



Friends (I understand this because I didn't have any at one point) are hard to find %26amp; make. I can't make any suggestions apart from touch base with old friends? Join clubs/gym?



Guys? If you don't find it easy to meet them (suppose it's hard if you don't have friends to therefore go out %26amp; socialise to meet anyone) then try the net :) - I have many friends who met other halfs on dating sites. Always meet in a safe public place though.