Sunday, November 14, 2010

How should i let go of this?

I had hooked up with a coworker since I did feel a little attracted to him. Supposedly he has a gf but I don't know. We never actually had sex but we touched, caressed, and we would have dry sex. You know he would rub his private against mine. The thing is I've never been sexual with or even kissed a guy. So maybe there is something wrong with me. Anyway back in November, I emailed him telling him that this FWB is over and that I would tell HR on him if he ever suggested hooking up. Since November, I've been ignoring him completely no hello nada. Since I was so mad and hurt. Last month he went out of the country, I was actually relieved that he was gone, but then he came back last week and I kept ignoring him until yesterday. Yesterday, I saw him in the kitchen and he said hello, you know like a mechanical/ break the ice hello and I smiled and said hello and that was it. I felt completely at ease. This morning, I ran into him and said hello and he didn't say anything. I emailed him saying that I was hoping we could be on speaking terms since yesterday I felt at ease with speaking to him. He ignored my email. He actually didn't bother to open it and looked at me like a freak. I personally confronted him and he was like fine. As the afternoon progressed, I did a lot of walking by passing his desk, but I didn't bother to talk to him since I was working. As I was walking back and he was leaving he gave me a somewhat dirty rude look. I personally thought that was rude and I sent him an email stating that I thought him looking at me funny was rude and that I was hurting these past few months and that I was hoping we could get along as coworkers. Then I sent him another email that it was best that we didn't talk and that he should leave me alone and let me do my job. How can I move past this and get out and get some friends and a boyfriend? All I do is work and go to school, but I feel if I were getting out with people. This would be easier to deal with.

Sometimes he looks at me weird, so I don't know how he's feeling.How should i let go of this?
If I was you I wouldn't contact him anymore or even have anything to do with him at all. I have a story to tell you. Where I live there was a girl I once new . She is now dead. She too was having emailing with

a co-worker...her and a guy she was working with this happened. He had convinced her to go out for

coffee and when she went he put something in her coffee and he had put something in it and she died

from what he had put in her coffee. She was in the exact position you were in with a co-worker.

So mind your own business and just do your job and go home. Don't give out where you live or give

out your phone numbers. Always let another woman who works with you know or Human Resources you

are feeling odd about this person.

Don't leave this situation , do something about it as soon as possible.

Gracy

April.13.10.

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